Today was a little rough for me, I'm not gonna lie.
The worries of moving in with my family for a few months, putting the responsibility of watching my son for me when I feel like I should be able to do it myself is pretty hard. Feeling incapable of taking care of my kid is probably one of hardest things I've had to accept through this process.
We've decided to not move in with them tomorrow, but next week on Saturday. My mom-in-law was able to extend her time off work to help me and Josh get our stuff together without having to majorly rush. I'll just say, it was a huge blessing because all morning I was crying and stressing myself out because I wasn't ready to leave my house to go and be taken care of when I feel like I should be able to do that myself.
My head started pounding and my heart was racing like I'd just ran a full marathon without stopping. The on-call doctor from my doctors office told me to just relax because my anxiety was turning into a panic attack. So I've been doing just that; kicking up my feet and relaxing.
Since I couldn't go grocery shopping on Wednesday as I'd planned, we were kind of short on food today. Josh kindly picked up a few things, enough to cover the weekend but neither of us felt like cooking. He got us dinner from Five Guys and, lets just say, Lincoln LOVES Five Guys.
The worries of moving in with my family for a few months, putting the responsibility of watching my son for me when I feel like I should be able to do it myself is pretty hard. Feeling incapable of taking care of my kid is probably one of hardest things I've had to accept through this process.
We've decided to not move in with them tomorrow, but next week on Saturday. My mom-in-law was able to extend her time off work to help me and Josh get our stuff together without having to majorly rush. I'll just say, it was a huge blessing because all morning I was crying and stressing myself out because I wasn't ready to leave my house to go and be taken care of when I feel like I should be able to do that myself.
My head started pounding and my heart was racing like I'd just ran a full marathon without stopping. The on-call doctor from my doctors office told me to just relax because my anxiety was turning into a panic attack. So I've been doing just that; kicking up my feet and relaxing.
Since I couldn't go grocery shopping on Wednesday as I'd planned, we were kind of short on food today. Josh kindly picked up a few things, enough to cover the weekend but neither of us felt like cooking. He got us dinner from Five Guys and, lets just say, Lincoln LOVES Five Guys.
I think things are looking up after today's meltdowns. I feel a lot more calm and prepared to take on the concept of depending on others to pick up the slack while I grow the baby.
I feel so blessed to be surrounded by such a strong support system of friends and family who care so much about my son's health and my health that they're willing to do what I can't.
Thanks for reading!!
Mackenzie
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